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An open letter to those who believe people with an invisible illness are faking or lazy. It highlights the reality of living with an invisible illness. Life with chronic pain, mental illness and invisible illnesses

But You Don’t Look Sick: An Open Letter About Life with an Invisible Illness

An open letter to those who believe people with an invisible illness are faking or lazy. It highlights the reality of living with an invisible illness. Life with chronic pain, mental illness and invisible illnessesThe Reality of Living with an Invisible Illness

This letter is dedicated to those who believe people who live with an invisible illness are lazy, faking, lying and any other negative thoughts you may have because they ‘don’t look sick’.

This letter is not written from a mean-spirited or bitter place, rather I am writing this letter to help spread awareness about what living with an invisible illness looks like. While you can never truly understand the day-to-day struggles of a person with an invisible illness (I truly hope you never experience this yourself), it is my hope that this letter will help to open your eyes to what other people are going through.

 

This letter is generalized to include anyone with an invisible illness. There are more invisible illnesses than I can write but some include arthritis, depression, anxiety, fibromyalgia, lupus, polycystic ovary syndrome and so many more!

 

All of these invisible illnesses take an incredible toll on a person physically, mentally, and emotionally.

Those who live with chronic pain are impacted of course with physical pain but also feel mentally exhausted and often emotionally defeated.

Those with a mental health condition/disorder are both emotionally and mentally impacted but they also feel physical pain thanks to feelings of exhaustion, stomach aches, and many other symptoms.

 

Here is an example of what a person who is newly diagnosed with an invisible illness goes through:

Let’s use an imaginary person named Annie as an example. Annie is a single mother of 3 children who works as a cashier at the local department store. Although money is tight she is generally a very a happy person and a great mother to her children.

One day things start to change…

Annie feels completely exhausted, she was tired when she went to bed but was awake most of the night. She brushes it off thinking it’s just an ‘off’ day. However, this continues for weeks and is getting progressively worse. Even on nights when she does sleep she still feels completely exhausted the next day. She is also having increasing pain in her hands and shoulders making it very hard to scan customers purchases at work. Yet she smiles and puts on a brave face for those around her. After all, she doesn’t ‘look sick’. This continues for months, she starts forgetting simple tasks and feels like she is living in a fog. She’s embarrassed and frustrated with her body. She has seen her doctor over the course of the past 6 months but blood tests and scans all come back saying she is fine.

 

You’ve probably seen a girl before who is going through exactly what Annie has been dealing with.

Remember, the young girl in her late 20’s park in a handicapped spot at the store last week? You saw she had a sticker but figured it couldn’t be for her… it must be for one of her parents because she’s young and ‘doesn’t look sick’. The reality is that the parking sticker was in fact hers. She is mortified that she has to use it. After all, ‘she doesn’t look sick’. But if she wants to be able to get food for the kid’s lunches the next day she has to park there. After all, it took her 30 minutes just to get dressed to go to the store. The fact that she can’t park and walk in like everyone else her age makes her feel frustrated and embarrassed. But the pain is excruciating. She wouldn’t wish this on anyone.

 

Annie feels defeated.

Her kids are still taken care of but they have definitely noticed her damped spirits and mom no longer has the energy to play with them at the park. Annie feels crazy, she knows something is wrong but she looks fine. She feels like no one believes what she is going through. She also hasn’t told many people about what she is going through out of fear that they won’t believe her and think she is whining.

 

Remember the times your coworker has called in sick and you thought “they are being lazy and just want a day off”?

Not only is Annie’s body fighting her at every moment of every day, she is also fighting a mental war inside her head. If only you could see the bruises from the physical and mental war she fights every day. Maybe then it would be ok since she ‘looks sick’.

See more mental health quotes like this one HERE!

“You don’t know why you’re exhausted You’re fighting a war inside your head every single day. If that’s not exhausting I don’t know is.” -Unknown www.paintedteacup.com

 

After about a year of this Annie has to go on leave from work.

She physically can’t do it anymore, the pain is excruciating. Yet when you look at Annie she appears to be tired and her smile looks forced but other than that ‘she doesn’t look sick’. Annie hates her body, she feels like it has betrayed her and she feels like a piece of her identity has been taken away. She really liked her job, she was able to interact with others, provide for her family and provide great service to her customers, something she highly valued. But now that was all gone. She is no longer a ‘fun & active’ mother to her children. She is starting to feel like she doesn’t know who she is anymore.

 

Remember when you thought people were lazy and just didn’t want to work?

At this point, Annie would give anything to be able to go back to work. To feel productive. To provide for her family.

 

Once she goes on leave the doctor’s start to take her symptoms more seriously.

She eventually sees a rheumatologist and after more testing, she is diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. She learns that the symptoms of Fibromyalgia include muscle pain and spasms, fatigue, insomnia, brain fog (difficulty concentrating & remembering), tingling, stomach pain and digestive issues, feeling anxious and depressed and so much more. She feels relieved. She has answers. People will finally believe her even though she ‘doesn’t look sick’. Her doctor recommends a few medications to help her manage the pain and lift her spirits.

Finally, Annie feels hopeful about the future… things can get better.

A few days later it all sinks in.

This is for life. While there are things she can do to help manage her symptoms, there’s no cure.

 

Now that she has a diagnosis she decides to tell her loved ones.

They have noticed changes over the past year and a half and most are supportive and kind. However, some simply don’t get it. She had a friend say but you don’t look sick, you’re too young to have that’, even with a diagnosis a friend didn’t believe her. She was heartbroken. Another friend who seemed to have good intentions said: “well at least it isn’t something that is fatal, it could be a lot worse”. It seemed like this person’s heart was in the right place but their words cut deep. Maybe they just didn’t know the right words to say.

 

Annie’s symptoms eventually become more manageable but she still has days (more often than not) when she has a flare, the pain and fatigue take over and she’s defeated.

When we started Annie was an upbeat person, a wonderful mother, a cashier who contributed to society and provided financially for her family. She was proud, confident and happy.

Thanks to her medication Annie is back to work part-time but is completely exhausted after work and has to spend most of the night on the couch. You see, people with chronic pain/illness only have so many ‘spoons’ in a day. Doing an activity takes a spoon, and once the daily ‘spoons’ are gone, she is done for the day. She simply doesn’t have any spoons left. She is still a wonderful mother but feels guilty that she can’t be as physically active in her children’s lives. She still wears a smile but more often than not it’s a way to hide the pain. She is working through her feelings towards her body but at this point, they are definitely not positive, she still feels betrayed.

 

Now that you have heard Annie’s story, what do you think?

Do you think she is incredibly lazy or do you think she is an incredible fighter? Do you think she is whining or is she hiding much more of her pain than you realized? Do you think she is faking it? Or is she doing anything possible to survive and get through the day?

This letter was not written to get your pity or sympathy. It’s to show you the reality of living with and invisible illness. The people you think are faking or lazy or weak are actually incredible warriors. Each day they fight their bodies physically, mentally, and emotionally to take part in society. They put a smile on their face, show up and do their very best.

See more chronic illness quotes like this one HERE!

“I fight for my health every day in way most people don’t understand. I’m not lazy. I’m a warrior.” -Unknown www.paintedteacup.com

 

It is my hope that next time you see someone who looks healthy, you stop before you judge. Maybe they ‘look fine’ but parked in a handicapped spot. Maybe they ‘sound fine’ but called in sick to work. Remember this letter and think about Annie’s experience. You don’t have to completely understand what someone is going through to be kind.

Sincerely,

A mental health & chronic pain warrior & advocate for others.

2 thoughts on “But You Don’t Look Sick: An Open Letter About Life with an Invisible Illness

  1. Although I’m a married Mother of 2, now in my mid 30’s, this is my everyday life. I started to cry reading your letter. You should see the looks of hatred & disdain from older people when I have to use my handicapped permit. I had an older man tell me, “Just get out of the damn spot, and walk, I should stop taking drugs!” This was last Thanksgiving. I suffer from several debilitating autoimmune diseases (Crohn’s Disease, Fibromyalgia, Enteropathic Arthritis, etc. Severe Anemia, A bladder disease that feels like a chronic bladder infection, and more), not to mention depression, adhd & anxiety. I go out of my way to be friendly to everyone, and I wouldn’t wish this part of my life on anyone. I truly wish people would stop to consider that even though someone is putting on a happy facade & looks put together on the outside, they may be dying on the inside. Thank you for the article!

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